Eye of the Mountain
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Writing about breaking into reality.
Essays, memoir and poetry on attention, grief, belonging and aliveness. What does it take to live beyond survival and projection? How do we move towards participation and thriving?
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Faking of the Faking
Examines the recursive loss of authenticity when imitation copies imitation and performance replaces contact with an original impulse. Form survives while lived meaning becomes progressively hollow.
Coherence of the Center
Proposes the center as the organizing reference point of transformation. Coherence emerges when perception and action orient from an embodied center rather than reacting from fragmented edges.
The Blame Wrapper
Interprets narcissistic blame as armor built around unbearable childhood shame. Confidence and control form a polished outer castle whose accusations keep vulnerability, accountability, and grief from reaching the abandoned child inside.
Dating Profiles
Satirizes dating-app self-presentation by making projection, maternal longing, rejection practice, and domestic expectations explicit. The joke exposes how profiles market fantasies instead of introducing real people.
The Frozen Scream
Investigates preverbal terror whose bodily evidence persists without a recoverable narrative. The frozen scream names an early survival state that organized vigilance, identity, and relationship long before conscious memory.
The 5 F's: Freeze, Fawn, Flee, Fight, Follow
We think of personality as fixed - “that’s just who I am.” But beneath lies a choreography of survival: five ancient instincts that shape how we move through love, conflict and belonging. Understanding them isn’t about pathology. It’s about reclaiming choice - the space between stimulus and response where our true self waits to dance.
Facing the Void
Stages surrender at the cliff where the former self and its guarantees end. Leaping becomes an act of love and faith: freedom lies not in securing a landing but in no longer requiring one.
Start Here - the Arc of Becoming
My writing traces a single long arc — from trauma to wholeness, from silence to voice.
Autobiographical Pieces
These are the stories that built me. They trace the long arc from childhood abuse and suicidal despair to awakening, meaning, and purpose. Each one is a milestone — a moment when I stopped surviving and started seeing. They aren’t just confessions, but maps: records of how pain becomes understanding, how shame becomes strength, and how truth, when spoken…
Poems
These poems are milestones on my way home. I didn’t write them to impress or explain — I wrote them because I had to. Each one marks a moment when something broke, opened, or came alive again. Together, they tell the story of becoming feral in the best way possible — wild, awake, and at peace with the world.
Guides for Healing
Collects the practices that carried the author through trauma recovery, emphasizing grief, nervous-system capacity, embodied attention, and the slow conversion of pain into usable experience.
A Pariddle of Feral
Inside us live we have a hierarchy of creatures. This myth-poem is about captivity, ferality, and the parts of us that carry our souls to freedom.