Eye of the Mountain
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Writing about breaking into reality.
Essays, memoir and poetry on attention, grief, belonging and aliveness. What does it take to live beyond survival and projection? How do we move towards participation and thriving?
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Resurrecting the Lost Technology of Grief
Grief isn’t a stage you “get through.” It’s a living technology — a force that dismantles and remakes us. Here I share how grief works on the body, the spirit, and the community, and why learning its language is key to healing.
Murder of Innocence
When I was twelve, two tiny pet rats taught me the truth about cruelty. This story is one of the hardest I’ve written, but it was also a turning point in how I began to understand my father — and myself.
Unfurling
Healing feels like trying to shape water — impossible, until you realize you can flow with it. This series is about the practices and metaphors that helped me turn trauma into movement, ritual and life.
You call it a wasteland?
Some people see ruin. I see the raw material of rebirth. This is a spoken-word meditation on destruction and what can grow in its ashes.
Emotional Rape
Abuse doesn’t always leave bruises. The deepest scars I carry came from manipulation, gaslighting, and domination that no one could see. This is my attempt to name the tactics of invisible abuse so they lose their power.
The Weight
Trauma doesn’t just wound — it weighs. This is a litany of the heaviness I’ve carried, written not to collapse under it but to name it, so it can finally be set down.
The Love that Stayed
A reflection on how love can awaken us — not by lasting forever, but by showing us what in us is ready to heal. This piece traces the transformation of heartbreak into wholeness: how another person’s presence can open the heart, how loss can reveal self-worth, and how endings can become thresholds. It’s not a story of romantic success, but of inner…
Between the Abyss and the Void
Locates a narrow path between overwhelm and disappearance, the two directions a traumatized self can fall. Balance means remaining embodied on that edge without being consumed or erased.
Father to Son
Imagines the initiating words of the father the author needed and the father he hopes to become. It replaces inherited violence with guidance that joins strength, belonging, permission, and accountable love.
Taming the Dragon
Living with Borderline Personality Disorder felt like being chained to fire. Writing publicly about it became a way of taming that dragon — of turning intensity into clarity, and shame into voice.
Right here, right now, right you
Presence can feel elusive — like something always out of reach. This piece is a playful reminder that the only doorway is the one right in front of us: here, now, and the person you already are.
From Scarcity to Abundance, Through Hell (but gamified!)
Scarcity isn’t just about money — it’s the way trauma teaches us to live braced, small, never enough. This piece is about how I turned toward those demons and discovered that abundance isn’t about stuff — it’s about safety, wholeness, and breath.