Eye of the Mountain
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Writing about breaking into reality.
Essays, memoir and poetry on attention, grief, belonging and aliveness. What does it take to live beyond survival and projection? How do we move towards participation and thriving?
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The Underwhelming End of Urgency
Captures the anticlimactic shift from demanding explanations in order to feel safe to discovering safety directly. As urgency ends, excessive analysis becomes noise rather than rescue.
Language Fails
Places embodied contact beyond representation, arguing that touch can communicate a depth of recognition and repair that images and language cannot hold.
Constipained
Addresses neglected pain as an inner child whose unmet experience has become a chronic bodily contraction. Compassionate witnessing allows the body to stop bracing around what it once had to hold alone.
Violent Pleasure
Stages joy as a threatening sensation that a trauma-shaped body must learn to tolerate, exposing how even pleasure can provoke resistance when suffering feels safer.
Reducing the Noise
Applies the Weber–Fechner law to perception, nervous-system regulation, and daily life. As background stimulation decreases, subtler signals become legible, allowing sensitivity and choice to replace the need for ever-greater intensity.
Performance Culture and its Discontents
Performance culture is a social system in which worth is conditional on output . Not character. Not presence. Not contribution to life. Output. Quietly and persistently it asks over and over: what are you producing right now and how does it compare?
Don’t Stop, Just Notice
This is a post about addiction but before you roll your eyes hear this: I’m not here to lecture you that addiction is bad and that you should willfully stop. Most of the time, that’s brutally hard and even when you’re successful it comes back, often with vengeance, or in another shape. Honestly, I’m not sure that modern life is even survivable without…
Against Coffee
Uses coffee as the first case study in socially rewarded self-disconnection. The essay questions whether borrowed stimulation conceals exhaustion, overrides bodily information, and helps performance culture feel natural.
Just Everything
Critiques a modern life fragmented by screens, stimulation, productivity, and individualism. Against that division, it insists that human survival and aliveness depend on recovering felt membership in bodies, rooms, communities, and the living world.
Continue Here - The Arc of Becoming
How do you become a decent father when the one you had either wasn’t there or taught you all the wrong lessons? How do you become a steady, safe, encouraging presence for your children and community when you grew up with violence, neglect, mockery or abuse? How do you reclaim masculinity when the version you inherited wounded everyone it touched? How do…
Baseline Human
Contrasts ordinary regulation with spiritual or performative ideals, proposing stillness, presence, embodiment, and mutuality as signs of being healed enough to live.
Erotic Charge
Distinguishes erotic vitality from compulsion by holding desire together with consent, limitation, and choice. Its charged freedom comes from a yes that retains access to no, and wanting without turning want into need.