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Essays, memoir and poetry on attention, grief, belonging and aliveness. What does it take to live beyond survival and projection? How do we move towards participation and thriving?
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Performance Culture and its Discontents
Performance culture is a social system in which worth is conditional on output . Not character. Not presence. Not contribution to life. Output. Quietly and persistently it asks over and over: what are you producing right now and how does it compare?
Don’t Stop, Just Notice
This is a post about addiction but before you roll your eyes hear this: I’m not here to lecture you that addiction is bad and that you should willfully stop. Most of the time, that’s brutally hard and even when you’re successful it comes back, often with vengeance, or in another shape. Honestly, I’m not sure that modern life is even survivable without…
Against Coffee
Uses coffee as the first case study in socially rewarded self-disconnection. The essay questions whether borrowed stimulation conceals exhaustion, overrides bodily information, and helps performance culture feel natural.
How to Do 100 Years of Transformational Healing in One Year
A deliberately exaggerated, darkly comic twenty-step guide to accelerated healing. Beneath the clickbait, it inventories the destabilization, grief, relational risk, embodiment, and relentless practice involved in remaking a life.
The Role of a Mother
Defines mothering as the capacity to remain present with pain without abandoning, fixing, or becoming overwhelmed by it—and considers how that capacity is internalized.
Coherence of the Center
Proposes the center as the organizing reference point of transformation. Coherence emerges when perception and action orient from an embodied center rather than reacting from fragmented edges.
The Blame Wrapper
Interprets narcissistic blame as armor built around unbearable childhood shame. Confidence and control form a polished outer castle whose accusations keep vulnerability, accountability, and grief from reaching the abandoned child inside.
The 5 F's: Freeze, Fawn, Flee, Fight, Follow
We think of personality as fixed - “that’s just who I am.” But beneath lies a choreography of survival: five ancient instincts that shape how we move through love, conflict and belonging. Understanding them isn’t about pathology. It’s about reclaiming choice - the space between stimulus and response where our true self waits to dance.
Resurrecting the Lost Technology of Grief
Grief isn’t a stage you “get through.” It’s a living technology — a force that dismantles and remakes us. Here I share how grief works on the body, the spirit, and the community, and why learning its language is key to healing.
Unfurling
Healing feels like trying to shape water — impossible, until you realize you can flow with it. This series is about the practices and metaphors that helped me turn trauma into movement, ritual and life.
Venom to Medicine: the Alchemy of Growth
Presents shadow work as an alchemical practice for converting defensive traits into mature capacities—shame into honor, fear into courage, anger into boundaries, and envy into aspiration—through attention, grief, embodiment, and repetition.
The elephant in the room
We think of the elephant as something awkward we pretend not to see. But the one I faced was vaster, heavier — a presence that filled not just a room, but my whole sense of reality. This reflection is about using all of our senses to meet what’s always been there, silently shaping everything.