Eye of the Mountain
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Writing about breaking into reality.
Essays, memoir and poetry on attention, grief, belonging and aliveness. What does it take to live beyond survival and projection? How do we move towards participation and thriving?
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The Blame Wrapper
Interprets narcissistic blame as armor built around unbearable childhood shame. Confidence and control form a polished outer castle whose accusations keep vulnerability, accountability, and grief from reaching the abandoned child inside.
Dating Profiles
Satirizes dating-app self-presentation by making projection, maternal longing, rejection practice, and domestic expectations explicit. The joke exposes how profiles market fantasies instead of introducing real people.
The Frozen Scream
Investigates preverbal terror whose bodily evidence persists without a recoverable narrative. The frozen scream names an early survival state that organized vigilance, identity, and relationship long before conscious memory.
Autobiographical Pieces
These are the stories that built me. They trace the long arc from childhood abuse and suicidal despair to awakening, meaning, and purpose. Each one is a milestone — a moment when I stopped surviving and started seeing. They aren’t just confessions, but maps: records of how pain becomes understanding, how shame becomes strength, and how truth, when spoken…
Poems
These poems are milestones on my way home. I didn’t write them to impress or explain — I wrote them because I had to. Each one marks a moment when something broke, opened, or came alive again. Together, they tell the story of becoming feral in the best way possible — wild, awake, and at peace with the world.
A Pariddle of Feral
Inside us live we have a hierarchy of creatures. This myth-poem is about captivity, ferality, and the parts of us that carry our souls to freedom.
Murder of Innocence
When I was twelve, two tiny pet rats taught me the truth about cruelty. This story is one of the hardest I’ve written, but it was also a turning point in how I began to understand my father — and myself.
Father to Son
Imagines the initiating words of the father the author needed and the father he hopes to become. It replaces inherited violence with guidance that joins strength, belonging, permission, and accountable love.
Taming the Dragon
Living with Borderline Personality Disorder felt like being chained to fire. Writing publicly about it became a way of taming that dragon — of turning intensity into clarity, and shame into voice.
Yesterday Grief, Today Mischief
Our moods can feel like prisons — grief, scarcity, rejection, emptiness. But they always pass, and when they do, something new arrives: mischief, lightness, curiosity. This piece is about honoring emotional extremes as teachers instead of fighting them.
The Eye of the Mountain
On a vision quest, I found a symbol that has guided me ever since: the eye of the mountain. This is the story of facing silence, fear, and hunger — and discovering the myths that shape our lives.
The Blackness of Darkness
This essay recounts my earliest experiences of physical and emotional abuse — and how those wounds shaped my nervous system, relationships, and sense of self. It’s an unflinching look at what happens when love and violence fuse in a child’s world, and how those patterns echo across a lifetime. This is not a story of blame, but of understanding — of…