Eye of the Mountain
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Writing about breaking into reality.
Essays, memoir and poetry on attention, grief, belonging and aliveness. What does it take to live beyond survival and projection? How do we move towards participation and thriving?
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Porous
Considers the body as a porous, changing field whose boundaries expand with movement and perception, replacing the fantasy of a fixed self with participation in an environment.
The Frozen Scream
Investigates preverbal terror whose bodily evidence persists without a recoverable narrative. The frozen scream names an early survival state that organized vigilance, identity, and relationship long before conscious memory.
The 5 F's: Freeze, Fawn, Flee, Fight, Follow
We think of personality as fixed - “that’s just who I am.” But beneath lies a choreography of survival: five ancient instincts that shape how we move through love, conflict and belonging. Understanding them isn’t about pathology. It’s about reclaiming choice - the space between stimulus and response where our true self waits to dance.
Poems
These poems are milestones on my way home. I didn’t write them to impress or explain — I wrote them because I had to. Each one marks a moment when something broke, opened, or came alive again. Together, they tell the story of becoming feral in the best way possible — wild, awake, and at peace with the world.
Resurrecting the Lost Technology of Grief
Grief isn’t a stage you “get through.” It’s a living technology — a force that dismantles and remakes us. Here I share how grief works on the body, the spirit, and the community, and why learning its language is key to healing.
Unfurling
Healing feels like trying to shape water — impossible, until you realize you can flow with it. This series is about the practices and metaphors that helped me turn trauma into movement, ritual and life.
Taming the Dragon
Living with Borderline Personality Disorder felt like being chained to fire. Writing publicly about it became a way of taming that dragon — of turning intensity into clarity, and shame into voice.
Breathe in
Uses the cycle of inhaling and exhaling to connect regulation, sensitivity, joy, and growth. Breath becomes the meeting place of conscious intention and unconscious life, allowing vulnerability to function as an opening rather than a threat.
A Taste of Life
This is what aliveness tastes like — the press of the throttle, the rise of the sun, the shiver of being seen. This poem is a hymn to those fleeting, infinite moments when the body remembers joy and the heart no longer flinches. It’s about flying, dancing, loving, forgiving, and realizing that every sensation — even pain — is proof that you’ve come back…
Write it in blood if you must
Accompanies the reader through suicidal despair from the perspective of someone who survived its long recurrence. It treats surrender, truthful expression, and being witnessed as ways to remain in relationship with life when hope is unavailable.
Barefoot
This essay begins as a reflection on the simple act of walking without shoes — and unfolds into a lesson on sensitivity and connection. By feeling the earth directly, I explore how awareness in the body can ripple into awareness in relationships and daily life. It’s a piece about gentleness and remembering that belonging starts with attuned contact —…
Throat Chakra: voice
Treats the throat chakra as the meeting place of truth, authority, and expression, exploring how a silenced or adaptive voice can become direct, accountable, and powerful without losing love.