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Poetry2 min readintimateIntensity 3/5September 17, 2025

Father to Son

Imagines the initiating words of the father the author needed and the father he hopes to become. It replaces inherited violence with guidance that joins strength, belonging, permission, and accountable love.

familybelongingrelationshipsancestral and family patternsbelonging without conformityintimacy and mutual presence
Mode lyric meditation · relational inquiryMotifs chain and bond · feet and standing · father's voice
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Poetry1 min readintimateIntensity 2/5September 7, 2025

A Taste of Life

This is what aliveness tastes like — the press of the throttle, the rise of the sun, the shiver of being seen. This poem is a hymn to those fleeting, infinite moments when the body remembers joy and the heart no longer flinches. It’s about flying, dancing, loving, forgiving, and realizing that every sensation — even pain — is proof that you’ve come back…

alivenessembodimentrelationshipsjoy without earningcreative courageembodied awareness
Mode lyric meditation · somatic inquiry · relational inquiryMotifs taste and sensation · speed and flight · sunrise
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Memoir7 min readunflinchingIntensity 5/5Shock Collar · 1August 11, 2025

The Blackness of Darkness

This essay recounts my earliest experiences of physical and emotional abuse — and how those wounds shaped my nervous system, relationships, and sense of self. It’s an unflinching look at what happens when love and violence fuse in a child’s world, and how those patterns echo across a lifetime. This is not a story of blame, but of understanding — of…

traumafamilyrelationshipsabuse and its aftermathancestral and family patternsnervous-system regulation
Mode autobiographical testimony · somatic inquiry · relational inquiryMotifs light and darkness · wound and scar