Eye of the Mountain
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Writing about breaking into reality.
Essays, memoir and poetry on attention, grief, belonging and aliveness. What does it take to live beyond survival and projection? How do we move towards participation and thriving?
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Emotional Rape
Abuse doesn’t always leave bruises. The deepest scars I carry came from manipulation, gaslighting, and domination that no one could see. This is my attempt to name the tactics of invisible abuse so they lose their power.
The Love that Stayed
A reflection on how love can awaken us — not by lasting forever, but by showing us what in us is ready to heal. This piece traces the transformation of heartbreak into wholeness: how another person’s presence can open the heart, how loss can reveal self-worth, and how endings can become thresholds. It’s not a story of romantic success, but of inner…
Taming the Dragon
Living with Borderline Personality Disorder felt like being chained to fire. Writing publicly about it became a way of taming that dragon — of turning intensity into clarity, and shame into voice.
From Scarcity to Abundance, Through Hell (but gamified!)
Scarcity isn’t just about money — it’s the way trauma teaches us to live braced, small, never enough. This piece is about how I turned toward those demons and discovered that abundance isn’t about stuff — it’s about safety, wholeness, and breath.
Write it in blood if you must
Accompanies the reader through suicidal despair from the perspective of someone who survived its long recurrence. It treats surrender, truthful expression, and being witnessed as ways to remain in relationship with life when hope is unavailable.
The Helm of Dustiny
Uses a pirate-themed Burning Man build as the stage for reclaiming direction after years organized by trauma and borrowed desires. The handmade helm becomes a declaration against performing, chasing, and betraying one’s own path.
The Eye of the Mountain
On a vision quest, I found a symbol that has guided me ever since: the eye of the mountain. This is the story of facing silence, fear, and hunger — and discovering the myths that shape our lives.
The Blackness of Darkness
This essay recounts my earliest experiences of physical and emotional abuse — and how those wounds shaped my nervous system, relationships, and sense of self. It’s an unflinching look at what happens when love and violence fuse in a child’s world, and how those patterns echo across a lifetime. This is not a story of blame, but of understanding — of…
Deconditioning Everything I Was
Rock bottom was my altar. A broken spine became my teacher. In the ashes of exhaustion, I found ignition. This is the story of how I stopped trying to heal into safety and started living into power: how the man who once begged not to wake up learned to walk, dance, build and burn again. It’s not about crawling out of the cave; it’s about launching from…